We are all animals

Good morning my fellow humans!

I just dug up my dear old black covered booklet. I've scribbled down there my feelings and thoughts concerning this world for 10 years. It was pretty fun to read, although it had some sick text too. Well, now I write the same shit here in the wonderous world of the Interweb. Thanks for the positive feedback btw. my friends. I love you. It warms this old cynical heart to know that someone's interested about my tales.

Yesterday I spoke about literal interpretation of the Bible. Today i shall broaden my view to cover religiousness in general. That is, I've always been fascinated about human's relationship to something higher. Human is a religious animal. History shows us that we've always had a need to believe to some higher power. May this force be God, Satan, Krishna, Ukko, Odin, Jupiter or even money, science, whatever. It may be so that faith to some transcendence makes one feel safe, when the own strength in life is not enough. There are of course those, who claim not to believe to something higher. Atheists. Atheism is that way a funny phenomenon, that a person who claims not to believe in any kind of divinty, believes actually in most cases in something. Although he/she may not recognise this. Or one recognises him-/herself to be for example a humanist, nihilist, etc. I happen to know a couple of "atheists" who are in fact science worshippers, i.e. they belive that science is the answer to all questions in this world. If you manage somehow be totally free from all religiousness, one shall remember what the great author F.M. Dostoyevsky has once said: "A perfect atheist is on a second last step on his way to true faith." I personally do not know for sure what to believe in these days. I resigned from the State Church over two years ago and been exploring many religions since. I've come to notice the similarities between almost all religions in the world. The obvious exeption being Satanism. But when you read Anton Szandor LaVey's writings, on finds them surprisingly humane. Read for yourselves, if you don't believe me. As I said, I'm not sure what to believe in, but they can't make me an atheist, that's for sure. We'll see.

I happen to have a great family. My mum and dad are people, that I always look up to. I've done some shit in my life, but they've never ever judged me for those things. They are always supportive and genuenly conserned of my life. They are my safety net, I might say. Honestly. My sister and brother then... I've couldn't hope for better siblings. For real. I can always talk to them whatever is troubling me, or just have fun with them. We may not talk daily, but we are very close. And my own spawn then. I wouldn't trade them for anything! They are so adorable. Thanks for being part of my life all.

Buddies are a weird thing. I have lots of buddies but less real friends. With buddies you can chat on Facebook or live and of course go and have a pint. But that's that basically. A real friend is another deal. You can tell him/her anything and don't have to fear about being left standing in the rain with a hat full of shit in hand. And vice versa. I'm a funny one for a straight guy, in that way that I happen to have a lot more female buddies and friends than male ones. I do not know, what is the case here, but that's just me. This fact has caused some friction in my romantic relationships, but what can I do?

I've not given up smoking yet btw. But maybe someday soon. I propably must hang out with non-smoking people so it would be easier to cut back. We'll see.

Till next time!
Cradle of Filth - Forgive Me Father (I Have Sinned)